In the past i have struggled roundly with making commission deliverables. There are a number of reasons for this that I've gone over before, but if you're new to the Faustie waiting game, it's based on several factors: I have twin babies who are growing into little boys, I have chronic depression, and I have a job that provides me with a primary source of income, that miraculously and unfortunately doesn't appear to be going away any time soon. My motivation to convert my freetime into someone else's artwork is lacking. That's it. I love your ideas, and it's my own fault for thinking too highly of myself and my abilities. I envisioned I would somehow be able to handle everything, and let the details work themselves out. I thought I could set mental health issues aside that manifest in my daily life, and that somehow the same rules of stress, and letting people down, would not apply to doing artwork for people.
I was wrong.
So, I won't get too much more into it, but basically I'm not going to be doing commissioned works anymore. It's just not worth it. If my life changes dramatically and I have more time, we can revisit it then, but right now drawing for people is one of the largest stressors of my life, and I need to kill that shit before I kill myself.
I really appreciate the support of strangers that you all have given me. I will keep drawing, no worries there. I'm also working on a side scrolling adventure game that stars a monster on a quest for ladies and vengeance. If you want to support me financially in that endeavor, or all other endeavors related to what I do, please donate to my Patreon. I'm going to be updating the Patreon verbiage soon to reflect my goals. Essentially, if I can get enough money to live off month to month, i will quit my job and increase the output of my artwork and various projects. I have a lot to give of me through my stuff to you, my fellow monster sex lovers. But i don't have a lot of time to do it. If that can change, then obviously my art priorities can as well. So yeah, if you like what I do and want to see more of it, please keep those support dollars rolling in!
I've got a bunch of personal projects I've been neglecting for a long time. Comics, the Gentleman's Bestiary, making games ( or trying to) and just having fun drawing. I don't want to hate drawing, and lately I have because it's become synonymous with labor. I didn't realize i was working 2 jobs until very recently, and that needs to stop if I'm ever going to get right in the head.
I'll be updating my website soon to reflect all this, and I'm going to try to send out personal notifications for people waiting to have commissions done. Again, i really do apologize and I hope you are still able to enjoy the art at least, which i intend fully to do more of whenever I can find the time.
thank you for hopefully understanding, and for viewing, and for being cool people